Heavy Eyes

My whole body is shutting down, my eyes slowly closing down. I must fight it; I don’t want to fall asleep, I want to stay awake. I tried to open my eyes, but they’re too heavy. It’s like there are a pair of tea bags over my eyes. I tried to get some inner motivation to get my brain stimulated to help me open my eyes, but I can’t find any. I can’t even carry myself to bed…I’m just too tired.

I always lost the battle in fighting my own sleep; sleep always overcome me.


Pressure, Come When I Need You!

For me, to be under pressure is two-sided. It’s good and bad.

It’s good when it ends procrastination and gets me started and serious. I get things done much faster than when I have a week to do so. However, I don’t get the chance to review my work. So I have to do my best!

It’s bad when the pressure overlaps and my hair turns grey. I get stressed, tired, anxious and pale. I get too serious and I don’t like that since I like to smile a lot. Rarely does anybody see me as serious; I am usually a very cheerful person. As for exams, pressure is never welcomed. Panic will fail me; so I just cool off before the test and do something fun and completely different. For example, I go hang out with friends who aren’t taking the test, or I watch a movie or eat something delicious or sit on the beach.

Pressure, come only when I need you; otherwise you’re not welcome. I love my hazelnut hair color; I don’t need another grey hair to ruin it!



I am a procrastinator.

I am a procrastinator, sleepy, tired and bored and I am 20. How can I end this permanently?

I don’t know. I am trying. It works once and then I go back to the same issue all over again. To solve this, I decided to know what’s the reason.

There might be several reasons behind this “habit”. I’ll call it a habit, because it is so. A habit is doing something you’re used to and even if you try to get away from it, it will keep haunting you. That’s it exactly.

I don’t know the real reason behind but I can list the following:

1. A lot to do in so little time.

2. No time to relax, have fun.

3. I’m in desperate need of a vacation and I can’t wait till another month of stress. 

4. I’m mentally tired. 

5. I am no longer motivated, no matter what I do. 

6. I want to go to another place. 

7. I want to be independent. 


Until I discover the reason, which I doubt, I will say this: I am a procrastinator, bored and tired, sleepy and I am 20. This is me at this moment.