Friends?


People come and go. Some stay longer, others end before they even start and a few whom I wished never lasted that long.

I live by two standards in life: Loyalty and Honesty. If you meet those two, at least towards yourself, you can enter my circle. But of course, there are sub-standards for the long-run. It’s actually just one: Can you make time for us? Even if it’s just 5 mins? If not, go away.

Let me tell you a story where I realized something a little too late.

I have only one remaining friend since childhood whom I still talked to, until today. I thought he was a true friend, a close friend. But in reality, he wasn’t. It was until a few days ago that I let the truth in.

When he comes to visit, I am the one who asks about him. I am the one who sets plans to meet. I am the one who persists for another meeting once the first, second and third fails. I am the one who initiates a friendly conversation, which doesn’t last long if it doesn’t feed his interest. He would only initiate a conversation if he wanted something. If we ever meet, pics are rarely to never taken. I shared my deepest secrets with him and he shared none, I came to realize. He also believes that make up and straightening my hair makes me look beautiful. Despite the fact that he knows me well, he still doesn’t know enough.

Why the hell was I still talking to him? I have way better, caring, understanding friends than him! Why is he still an important person in my life when I am not in his. He can’t spare 5 mins of his time to meet and talk! I should’ve never ignored the naked truth and simply let go. I wanted to share the latest highlight in my life, but I’ve been hesitant ever since. So I didn’t. He didn’t seem worth telling.

It’s a little too late now, but it’s better late than never. I’m letting go. Childhood friends … I have none! A few, very special ones remain and I look forward to adding more new special friends along the way in the future.

 

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Scamper Slowly


A Letter To Life:

Could you scamper slowly, Life?

Life, you’re going fast and time is flying at the speed of sound. I want to enjoy some extra moments with some extra time.

Life, you’re not even scampering. You’re running. Why the rush? What’s waiting for you? A new Life is going after you?

It wouldn’t be better than you. No one will accept it. The majority are afraid of what the world is becoming and wish they could go back to the simpler times. The times where love existed, where real connections existed, where real conversations lasted, where there was more real than virtual.

No need to hurry. It’s alright; you’ll always be welcomed first.

Scamper slowly, would you?

 

“Moments In Life” Blogger. 

 

 

Passing


Humans set rules, fight, kill, create wars, standards, and many complications in life. But for what? More money? More power? Protecting their pride and ego?

Does it really matter?!

If you think about it, we’re just passengers in this universe. Generations have passed by and have gone, and then a new generation is created and the process is repeated. We pass by for a certain period and after that, it’s all over.

I don’t understand why people like to complicate others’ lives and their own. I don’t understand the need to be biased. I don’t understand the reason to hate. We are all the same; we are passengers in time on this planet.

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Only Positive Vibes Allowed!


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In a world filled with bad things happening, there comes a time where you just need to pause. Pause for a second. Pause for a minute. Pause for an hour. Pause for a day. Just pause and reflect on yourself. Only you; forget everything and everybody else. Reflect on everything that belongs to you: Your thoughts, your feelings, your life path, your career path, your body, your needs, your wants, your desires. Write them down if you feel the need to. You’ll be surprised at how messed up your mind is. You’ll find secret thoughts that have been kept hidden even from your own conscious. You’ll find that those thoughts have been affecting who you are and how you decide and where you are at this moment.

It’s time for you to filter those thoughts down and leave only the positive ones with you. Life is difficult, tough and exhausting enough that you don’t need extra pressure from your own self. The best way to relax, even if for a few seconds, is to bring those positive vibes to your conscious mind and they will gradually help rid your soul of all the negativity.

You’ll find that after filtering your mind, you’ll lead a better, successful, happy life. You’ll be more relaxed. There will still be problems coming in. I mean, at the end of the day, you’re dealing with life. But at least, the problems will be easier to handle when you have the positivity dominating your mind and soul. If you fight anger with anger, an explosion will happen. If you fight anger with calmness, the anger will vent off until it evaporates and calms down. If you fight your problems with other problems, you’ll go crazy. But if you fight your problems with potential solutions, you’ll find the optimal solution without fretting.

Whenever you’re lost, confused, mad, angry, unhappy,…just pause! Pause, Reflect and Filter! And remember: Only Positive Vibes Allowed!

 

Repeat


It got to a stage where everything I do is part of a routine.

Weekdays:

Wake up late, prepare in a hurry, drink a sip of tea, head out to work, road rage, reach the office, put my stuff on my desk, drink a cup of water followed by a cup of milk sided with cereal. I go to the other offices, chat for half an hour and go back to my desk, open my laptop and start working (and fighting off the distractions).
Lunch break, watch series and then chat with my office mates. Back at my desk, work till shift is over. Rush to my car, road rage, have a small dinner, rest a bit, then head to the gym. Workout for two hours (because I have nothing else to do and plus I want to stay away from night eating). Get home, shower, watch tv with mom, read a bit then go to sleep.

Weekends:

Wake up late. Remember that I have to get some work done, have a late breakfast and watch tv for 1 hour, go to my room, fix and dust it. Then go to the gym, workout for 2 hours then head back, road rage, shower, late lunch, watch tv till there’s nothing, go to my room, read, skype with siblings, then go to sleep.

Repeat.

I feel useless; I’m wasting my energy on nothing… literally, nothing!
It feels easy and good and it’s very addicting!

All I know is … the clock is ticking and I haven’t done anything yet!

Young Souls


You never understand the real meaning of something until it’s too late.

I’m in my twenties now. It’s a stage in life where one should be young, wild, free and living their days like their last.
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Instead, I spend my day off wasting time and being lazy. I have a full-time job Monday through Friday. After work, I either head off to the gym or spend happy hours with my co-workers. On weekends, I spend half of the day sleeping and the other half watching series, and reading. My life right now is an easy routine that I can’t get out of.

This is a time where I should be working on myself, taking risks, dating, partying, trying new talents, travelling to a new city alone,….

But the world is getting harder and harder to live in with more obstacles that threaten one’s life and places fear in our parents’ hearts. I guess living with my parents and their rules, and the requirement to take permission to decide is my obstacle. Also, being the only daughter left at home with them leaves them more attached and harder to let go, and the only way out is to leave and live alone abroad.

It’s a period in my life that is worth remembering and is about to disappear very soon.

I’m afraid I’ll leave a little too late and miss out on that part of my life.

 

Being Used


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As long as we are alive, we will have to go through all of Life’s tests.

Life will put you through it, no matter how hard you try to avoid it. My mom warned about those manipulative people and I listened to her, but I didn’t exactly understand what she meant until it happened. And that’s when I learned my lesson and it never happened again.

That’s why they say: you will only learn from your mistakes.