Pursue A Dead-End


I knew it was a dead-end from the second week. I was bored. My instincts told me so. One of my close friends sent me a warning. But, I didn’t want to give up just yet. I waited a week and another. Nothing has changed; same old same old.

Just now, I made my final decision: I’m done! Why should pursue someone not worth pursuing? Why should I waste my energy on someone who doesn’t deserve to receive it? Why should I feel bad for someone who is selfish and negative? Why should I care and listen if he doesn’t listen back, or show the slightest interest?

Why should pursue someone who is not worth pursuing? Why should I waste my energy on someone who doesn’t deserve it? Why should I feel bad for someone who is selfish and negative? Why should I care and listen if he doesn’t listen back, or show the slightest interest?

They told me I made the same mistake with every date: My patience runs off quickly and I don’t know how to wait. I get pissed off quickly. I need to give it time. It takes time.

I felt as the bad person and I decided to give more time and maybe try a little harder, maybe it would work.

Well, it didn’t. And I ended up feeling worse. Of all the men I met, I was always the one who put in the most effort and ended getting slapped in the face, figuratively. I guess the reason I can’t wait too long is because, at this point, I need to love and be loved. I need this affection. Before, it was just a “want”, a “try”.

Of all the men I met, I was always the one who put in the most effort and ended getting slapped in the face, figuratively. I guess the reason I can’t wait too long is because, at this point, I need to love and be loved. I need this affection. Before, it was just a “want”, a “try”.   this experience, in particular, I was lost. I didn’t know who was advising me right. One friend told me to give it time, another told me she didn’t trust him, mom gave him excuses and told me to give it time. My guts were telling me to quit after the first week; they were telling me it’s a dead end.

This experience, in particular, I was lost. I didn’t know who was advising me right. One friend told me to give it time, another told me she didn’t trust him, mom gave him excuses and told me to give it time. My guts were telling me to quit after the first week; they were telling me it’s a dead-end.

My gut always won and I ended up giving myself false hope and feeling guilty.

Well not anymore! Starting now, that who doesn’t deserve my attention, won’t get it.

There’s no point in going after a dead-end, pain, headache, drama.

There’s no point in going after someone just because he’s a good person and has a good job and ambitions, and, and … There’s no point in going after someone who suddenly shows no interest. There’s no point in going after someone who texts “good morning” like it’s a duty. It just doesn’t make sense. I am not looking for marriage or to settle. I just need that affection, that love, that feeling!

Unfortunately, people don’t care about that feeling anymore. They just want to settle for the ease and wealth.

 

 

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As long as we are alive, we will have to go through all of Life’s tests.

Life will put you through it, no matter how hard you try to avoid it. My mom warned about those manipulative people and I listened to her, but I didn’t exactly understand what she meant until it happened. And that’s when I learned my lesson and it never happened again.

That’s why they say: you will only learn from your mistakes.

What Makes Me Smile


Performing a job I am passionate about.     Image                                                  

I know some people have passion from a young age, but my passion arose in my second year of university when I took the risk of taking courses that I had no idea about. One of these courses made my jaw drop; I was awed! That course, that field was exactly what I was looking for since senior year in high school when we began planning for our future. But at that time, I never knew what it was. That passion of mine was Marketing, specifically digital marketing. It’s fun, different and new and it entails working with what my parents consider as “wasting time”. My job is meddling with social media and the web which became as an essential part of my life. Now, I am taking a course about social media management and I am enjoying every second of it! I love it!

              Listening to good music and dancing on it. Image

Music has always played a role in each and everyone’s life, but I also know that it has and still plays an important role in my life. Without music, I feel empty and lifeless. Music is very diverse and I love to try to listen to new, non-trending music and share them with the world. Simply listening to music is not enough; I also love to dance on it. I feel good and free.

Eating and drinking chocolate.      Image                                                                     

If I miss a day without eating or drinking dark chocolate, I wouldn’t be in a good mood and you wouldn’t want to mess with me. Dark Chocolate is a very essential food in my life, probably because I grew with it. Well, what can I say more…? I mean its chocolate! Who doesn’t love chocolate?!

Doing sports          Image                                                                            

A healthy and natural way to de-stress and energize my body. After all the hard work during the week and all the pressure that is bombarded at you, you come to a point where you are about to explode. I like to take a day off sometimes to do a kind of sports to refresh my mind and feel better.

                 Participating in extracurricular activities                   Image                                      

My college life is routine: I wake up, go to college, go to classes, go to work, meet up with my team to work on projects for the courses and then go home and study. I can’t live like this! It’s too boring and too dull and very exhausting! That’s why I like to participate in activities or clubs to engage myself with something new, challenge my capabilities, and meet new people.

                                              Blogging    Image                

Sometimes, I don’t feel like doing sports. Sometimes, there are things I like to share, I like to say but I just can’t say it to my family or friends. I want to save it somewhere safe for other people looking forward to meet me and that way they’ll have something to refer to. That place is my blog! I love blogging simply because I love it! There are lots of things I can’t share with people by simply saying it; there are some things I need to get off my chest but I don’t know how to talk it out. So, I blog. After around a year of blogging here, I felt much better!

                            Talking with family and friends Image

But there are other times, where I like to share or simply talk to family and friends. It makes me happy to feel that there are people who would stick with you for life no matter what!

                                     Watching romantic comedy movies. Image

I don’t watch a lot of movies but if I were to watch a movie, I’d go for a romantic comedy. It’s a triple de-stress method. I smile, laugh and cry.

Hearing an amazing and capturing talk   Image

When I am listening to an amazing talk, I smile.

Watching babies do simple stuff.      Image

Babies make me smile no matter what they do. They’re cute and simple.

Taking care of my beauty     Image

I need to take care of my beauty so that it gives me that refreshing, energized, happy look.

The beach                    Image

I think I am addicted to the beach! I love anything that has to do with the beach.

 

 

Go Make Your Bed!


I am the laziest at this; especially when my mom keeps nagging at me to do it.

It is the easiest chore ever but I just hate it and I hate it even more when someone keeps yelling at me to do it! What’s the point? I am going to sleep on my bed again so what’s the point in fixing it??

Up to date, I couldn’t find a convincing reply to my question and till now I don’t make my bed and every day I get lectured about it. When I ask, why should I? My mom replies by saying “It looks presentable”. Hahahaha!!

I still don’t understand what that means; the only people who enter my room are either my friends (who are just like me!) or my parents. So why should it matter if it is ‘presentable’ or not?

I hate mess but not making my bed is not a mess; it is logical! And it doesn’t say anything bad about my personality, if that’s another reason that’s supposed to persuade me.

So stop yelling over my head and lecturing me about making my bed, ‘cuz up till now you’re not convincing and once you are, I promise I’ll do it on my own!

 

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