Pursue A Dead-End


I knew it was a dead-end from the second week. I was bored. My instincts told me so. One of my close friends sent me a warning. But, I didn’t want to give up just yet. I waited a week and another. Nothing has changed; same old same old.

Just now, I made my final decision: I’m done! Why should pursue someone not worth pursuing? Why should I waste my energy on someone who doesn’t deserve to receive it? Why should I feel bad for someone who is selfish and negative? Why should I care and listen if he doesn’t listen back, or show the slightest interest?

Why should pursue someone who is not worth pursuing? Why should I waste my energy on someone who doesn’t deserve it? Why should I feel bad for someone who is selfish and negative? Why should I care and listen if he doesn’t listen back, or show the slightest interest?

They told me I made the same mistake with every date: My patience runs off quickly and I don’t know how to wait. I get pissed off quickly. I need to give it time. It takes time.

I felt as the bad person and I decided to give more time and maybe try a little harder, maybe it would work.

Well, it didn’t. And I ended up feeling worse. Of all the men I met, I was always the one who put in the most effort and ended getting slapped in the face, figuratively. I guess the reason I can’t wait too long is because, at this point, I need to love and be loved. I need this affection. Before, it was just a “want”, a “try”.

Of all the men I met, I was always the one who put in the most effort and ended getting slapped in the face, figuratively. I guess the reason I can’t wait too long is because, at this point, I need to love and be loved. I need this affection. Before, it was just a “want”, a “try”.   this experience, in particular, I was lost. I didn’t know who was advising me right. One friend told me to give it time, another told me she didn’t trust him, mom gave him excuses and told me to give it time. My guts were telling me to quit after the first week; they were telling me it’s a dead end.

This experience, in particular, I was lost. I didn’t know who was advising me right. One friend told me to give it time, another told me she didn’t trust him, mom gave him excuses and told me to give it time. My guts were telling me to quit after the first week; they were telling me it’s a dead-end.

My gut always won and I ended up giving myself false hope and feeling guilty.

Well not anymore! Starting now, that who doesn’t deserve my attention, won’t get it.

There’s no point in going after a dead-end, pain, headache, drama.

There’s no point in going after someone just because he’s a good person and has a good job and ambitions, and, and … There’s no point in going after someone who suddenly shows no interest. There’s no point in going after someone who texts “good morning” like it’s a duty. It just doesn’t make sense. I am not looking for marriage or to settle. I just need that affection, that love, that feeling!

Unfortunately, people don’t care about that feeling anymore. They just want to settle for the ease and wealth.

 

 

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Live in Moderation


We are greedy and selfish by nature. However, we are gifted with a brain that controls our behavior and emotions. If we use our brain correctly, then we are able to control ourselves of internal needs and external ones. We can control how much we want to consume and how much to give out. We control our will. We strive for moderation to keep the balance and avoid hurting ourselves (and others) because of our greedy nature.

That’s why everybody advises the other to do everything in moderation. It is easier said than done, but possible if we have that will and determination! In life, there is a limit that we can’t go beyond because then we will be destroying ourselves.