Dead Inside


There are a few times where I feel dead inside. I feel empty, worthless. My life has no meaning. Then I get sad, and tears start flowing down my face. I can’t seem to find interest in anything, not even reading books or listening to music or watching a funny episode Friends or Seinfeld. I…

3 Types of People In Your Life


I think there are three types of people who enter your life. The long-term: The people who you can speak to and see every day. The on and off: The people who you can speak to and see every once in a while. The temporary: The people who enter your life for a short period…

Depression


What triggers my depression is a simple thought. A thought of a memory or a thought questioning a matter or a thought of a dream I’m still seeking.   My first depression episode happened in July 2018 when my one-year relationship had ended and I was left with a feeling of emptiness. That relationship was…

Now A Stranger


How could someone you’ve known for a year suddenly become a stranger? How could that someone you loved so deeply become someone you don’t recognize anymore? How could someone you let into your world feel like someone who doesn’t belong in it? How could a spark that was once so strong suddenly disappear? It’s heart-ache….

Crumb-le


It shocks me how silly moments and phases in life can affect you so deeply.  They make you crumble apart into small pieces in seconds. At this point, you’re completely lost and can’t figure out how to be complete again and the only way available is the easy way; to get back to that phase.    

Tingling


It was unexpected, far from expected! Then came that fraction-of-the-second touch and everything changed. A sensation of closeness grew stronger and warmer. More intense, more exciting than the second before. I wanted more. I felt greedy with CRAVE. I CRAVED that amazing, heart-racing, tingling feeling that crept under my skin and I didn’t want to let…

Clarity


We all deserve clarity and it’s your right to ask for it. It’s just how the other party responds that matters, not what the final answer is. Today, I demanded clarity. My mind needed it to be in peace. I am an honest person and I can’t let go of loose endings as if nothing has…

No Personal-ity


I spent the last week watching 1950s and 1960s romantic movies. Every second of each movie swept me away. The love was so authentic, so pure, so personal. There was a lot of interaction between two people, even though it was harder to communicate than today. Nowadays, there is still interaction but only behind the…

Go Unfuck Yourself


Many people use the phrase “Go Fuck Yourself” when they’re pissed at someone.  It just happens to be the only phrase that comes to mind. It’s part of our dictionary. But have you ever wondered about using the phrase “Go Unfuck Yourself” for positive intentions? To me, “Go Unfuck Yourself” means: Be who you were before…

DRIVE AWAY


She couldn’t take it anymore! She packed her things in a school bag and got into her 1965 Blue Ford Thunderbird. She turned on the engine and turned up the volume to The Beach Boys. She pulled to Drive and drove away. I’ve always wanted to drive away to a new place I’ve never been…