Dead Inside


There are a few times where I feel dead inside. I feel empty, worthless. My life has no meaning. Then I get sad, and tears start flowing down my face. I can’t seem to find interest in anything, not even reading books or listening to music or watching a funny episode Friends or Seinfeld. I…

3 Types of People In Your Life


I think there are three types of people who enter your life. The long-term: The people who you can speak to and see every day. The on and off: The people who you can speak to and see every once in a while. The temporary: The people who enter your life for a short period…

Depression


What triggers my depression is a simple thought. A thought of a memory or a thought questioning a matter or a thought of a dream I’m still seeking.   My first depression episode happened in July 2018 when my one-year relationship had ended and I was left with a feeling of emptiness. That relationship was…

Now A Stranger


How could someone you’ve known for a year suddenly become a stranger? How could that someone you loved so deeply become someone you don’t recognize anymore? How could someone you let into your world feel like someone who doesn’t belong in it? How could a spark that was once so strong suddenly disappear? It’s heart-ache….

Time to Let Go, For Good.


A devilish, amazing feeling crept in out of the blue. It felt good for a short while until my rationalism woke up from its nap. A loop was forming, almost closing. I got myself out easily the first time. This time it’s different; I have genuine and deeper feelings. I had to get out before…

Crumb-le


It shocks me how silly moments and phases in life can affect you so deeply.  They make you crumble apart into small pieces in seconds. At this point, you’re completely lost and can’t figure out how to be complete again and the only way available is the easy way; to get back to that phase.    

Friends?


People come and go. Some stay longer, others end before they even start and a few whom I wished never lasted that long. I live by two standards in life: Loyalty and Honesty. If you meet those two, at least towards yourself, you can enter my circle. But of course, there are sub-standards for the…

Care for a cup of tea?


So we can talk about life at 2 A.M. in the morning. Scenario 1: No? I didn’t think so. Care for a drink so we can go to your place and have a good time, then? Yes? I got your attention. But, I also got the answer. And here’s mine: No, thank you!   Scenario…

Mood Swings


Lots and lots of mood swings! My mood swings happen suddenly. Sometimes, I’m surprised by them. They’re also often hidden under my skin. Only those closest to me, get to take a sneak peek. As an introvert, I tend to share very little with as few humans as possible, especially when it comes to my mood…

That Fragrance


It came unexpectedly and I couldn’t be happier. It is not one thing; it is a collection of souvenirs. It is that touch, that smile, that look, that kiss, that lick, that smell that is all over my skin! That fragrance that I sleep with, think about and crave for. It doesn’t really smell like…